posted on Saturday, September 21, 2019 @ 9/21/2019 09:39:00 PM
Thanks to the haze, we are unable to go out and play. Not even to the playground downstairs. Thus, the forever messy house. The boys took a short nap and woke up as early as 2pm and there goes my afternoon nap. Entertained them and soon after it's evening.
Adil was cranky, obviously he was sleepy. Got them freshen up and soon after margrib, I put him to sleep. Only to find out Adam was in the kitchen, eating chocolate. I was furious that I screamed at him and make him stay in the kitchen for good 10mins, with him crying out loud.
In my house, my rules and my kitchen, my kids are not allow to anyhow suka hati open the fridge. Apparently at my parents house, he have all the luxury time to do that and I really do not like him open the fridge, like every 5-10mins. I got annoyed.
Right after I gave him piece of my mind and his scoldings, I make him marched to the bed and force him to sleep. & Yeap, he slept. Both my boys were asleep since 7.30pm which resulted in me finally having my WELL DESERVE ME TIME, watching Netflix, in PEACE.
Parenting is so hard. I have always been the hardest with Adam. I can't help it that sometimes I need help in calming myself down in whichever, whatever situation I am facing. Poor Adam. He must have thought that Ummi hates him that she scold him all the time.
I am sorry babylove. Ummi's having issues with her feelings and emotions. Ummi still unable to control them. Ummi is still in the midst of controlling it. I am sorry that I was not able to hug you to sleep and say I love you.
I'll sleep with you tonight and I'll hug you, with all my love.
One fine day when you grow up and found Ummi's blog, please read up. Please know that whatever screaming, scoldings I've given you, Please forgive Ummi for I love you until the end of my time in this life.
Ummi loves you more than anyone other woman in this world. Even when you found yourself a girlfriend or wife, always remember that Ummi and ayah loves you all the time.
Love you Adam
