posted on Monday, October 06, 2014 @ 10/06/2014 11:13:00 PM
4 Sep 2014 - The day dearest Yayi passed away, leaving this world.
4 Oct 2014 - A day before Eid Adha. Eid without you.
The dates, the number 4 seems to have a big impact on my life now. The number that I feared. ALLAH is the great Planner and behind every incident, there's a reason behind it.
I remembered the 2nd day dad was hospitalize due to the accident, Ayah managed to called and spoke to Yayi and both ended up crying. While, me on the other hand, the scenario seems to be pretty emotionally sad, therefore I left the room.
Yes. My heart is like stone. Mom always says that I don't have perasaan, I don't cry at certain events such as my wedding. Reason being: I trained myself to be that hard, cause I simply just HATE crying in front of people. I felt that if I need to cry, I will cry in the bathroom, in the room or simply just after prayers - which gave a huge relieved feeling, peace and calm.
I managed to visit Yayi that weekend and was planning to visit him again the next Friday but ALLAH has better plans. YES! I was extremely sad. It was a chaotic morning. Mom called my phone twice, and I rejected twice thinking that she wanted to wake me up for work; well, not until she knocked my room door, more like bang, crying & sobbing.
Me, on the other hand, kept asking what time what time.
Lesson learnt from previous accident. This time round, I texted the boss instead of calling them cause if I happened to called them, I would ended up crying and they won't be able to understand any single thing that came out of my mouth.
Dear Yayi, I missed you.
Thank you for teaching me ngaji when I was young. Thank You for being the best grandpa to me and the rest of your grandchildren. Having you leaving this world have left a great impact on my life.
I missed hearing you recite the Quran. I missed your voice scolding us. I missed taking you out for a bus ride and have breakfast. I missed the time where you give me a bicycle ride for my madrasah session.
Al-Fatihah to my dearest yayi, Haji Jaffar Bin Haji Abdul Majid.
Dear Yayi, I missed you.
Thank you for teaching me ngaji when I was young. Thank You for being the best grandpa to me and the rest of your grandchildren. Having you leaving this world have left a great impact on my life.
I missed your smiles.
I miss you.Al-Fatihah to my dearest yayi, Haji Jaffar Bin Haji Abdul Majid.
Semoga ALLAH S.W.T tempatkan Yayi bersama orang-orang yang beriman.
Amin. Amin. Ya Rabb. Amin.
