posted on Sunday, January 01, 2012 @ 1/01/2012 07:40:00 PM
RECAP OF 2011. WELCOMING 2012.
Its the year 2012 already. 1 January 2012. Brand New Year, Brand New Resolution. Like every other years, my resolution is to have long healthy hair but the weather in Singapore is not helping thus I have to cut my hair 4 times last year. Of course, other than that, shed some weigh (will elaborate it later), perform my 5prayers daily without missing any of it, also be a better muslim for ALLAH.
The Year 2011 have served me well. Can never thank ALLAH for the air and live HE let me breathe. I was a bad person, who seldom forgets to seek him, pray to him but HE was still there to hear my sorrow and joys. Dear ALLAH, I seek your forgiveness if I had done sins in my previous years of lives.
Besides that, last year 11 December 2011 was my 1 Year Engagement 'anniversary'. Trust me, I totally forgot about it and only managed to wish my fiance the day after that. It never cross my mind that I'm already someone's fiancee for a year already. Life's good so far, of course the ups and downs and also the moments of knowing each other session.
2011 had been a very difficult year for me in terms of my career. Both families and friends got worried about me working as a contract staffs for the past 4 years. Saving money for wedding was NOT easy. Alot of things needs to be sacrifices. Sometimes I got fed-up of it. Its like the feeling you work so hard and you can't spent 1 thing that you like, It's sad. My life was all about work in the office, go home, watched tv, sleep and the routine recurring everyday. But Alhamdulilah, a few weeks after I turned 22, received a job offer that promise me something of my future. Found a perfect spot in the office to perform my prayers, thus I believe there's no reason for me to skip it.
Apart from saving money, here comes THE MAIN issue. I heard alot of people telling me "caca! gi kurus kan badan la."(Caca, go and lose your weight) OR "CACA! Gemok eh kau" (Caca! You're FAT)
Does it affect your self-esteem?? Confidence?? Nahh... I used to lose my self-esteem and confidence when I got such remarks but now, I turned a deaf ear to them.
I know my body system very well. I know what I eat. I myself not sure if YOU people out there are criticizing me or in a good way to motivate me to shed those fats away but I appreciate that.
For as long as I feel good, be it I'm fat or skinny, that's my body. I feel beautiful with what I have now.
Who doesn't want to lose weight? I bet everyone does. I know I'm on a mission to do that. Don't forget!
BEING DIFFERENT IS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS ON EARTH. EMBRACE YOUR "YOU"NESS.
Here it is. I went to some Marketing & Sales company that sells product to lose weigh and also they pay you when you lose weigh, its like a reward. Its a good deal but however, the main issue was abit out of line. 60days mission to lose weight. after 60 days, we were told to wear tight outfit so that people can see that we lose weight and have body shape.
So, you tell me. Losing weigh for your own benefit and health or to MAKE PEOPLE LOOK at you that you are slim and sexy?? If that's the reason, I rather be what I am now. Islam teaches me never to dress up in tight outfit, whats more to show people how slim I look.
Oh well, different people have different perspective.
Leaving the weight lose issue, I'm gonna wrapped this entry. Preparation for big day in less than a year. Praying hard that everything is done moderately and goes well.
Starting the new year with
